Different Perspectives

I was talking to Mum the other day and she said she was surprised to read my last blog entry. She said when she was reading all of the things that I have coming up she thought to herself "how nice to have so many fun things to look forward to!" And then my final comment of "are you as exhausted reading this as I am?" seemed strange to her. The people who have commented have had similar things to say.
It just got me thinking about how hectic my life has become in the past month and a half and how I'm really not coping all that well. I guess all things considered I'm not doing too poorly, but I'm certainly not operating at peak performance, that's for sure.
Yesterday I chatted with Mare who said that her doctor was telling her that working the shift that she does (that we both do) is not good for one's health. It's funny how sometimes you need someone to state something painfully obvious just so that you can actually accept it and admit it to yourself. Months ago I was getting crippling headaches every weekend. I went to the doctor who looked at me as though he felt he were missing something because the answer was so blatantly obvious. He did his due diligence and ordered blood work, but told me it sounded to him like stress. Made perfect sense, but I needed him to tell me that my headaches were caused by stress. Until then I was holding onto the delusion that I was coping just fine and it was more than likely some sort of terribly bacterial infection, parasite, or strange tropical virus (I think I watch too much House). I just needed to be told it was stress. Then I could make a conscious effort to reduce the stress and cope. Apparently I also needed Mare to tell me that my lifestyle is not good for my health. You're probably thinking "Gee Jess, you get up at 4am and work 12 hours and go to bed at 9 and you didn't think it would have an adverse effect on your health? Well DUH!!"
So, this is a very round-about way of explaining my lack of blogging. No time, no energy, not mental capacity. That being said, I'm getting really excited for the year...Mum's visit, dress shopping, NKOTB, Mare's wedding, my wedding....it's all shiny on the horizon!